Free Your Mind

"Free your mind and the rest will follow / Be color blind, don't be so shallow."

— En Vogue

"Freed from desire, mind and senses purified... nananana-na-na."

— Gala

Fourteen years ago, I had my first meditation. They introduced me to the "picture world" —the way our minds store every image and moment, physically and mentally. As I meditated through everything I had ever been through, following the method, I saw my life clearly for the first time.

I realized I had long been a victim of my past, dragging it behind me like a heavy chain. It ruined how I saw life. Even new, friendly people, because I never felt safe. I grew up in a society that judged anything different, and I let that judge me, too. Afterwards, I can see that so many songs in the world sing about exactly this, almost as if our hearts are crying for it.

I used to think I had to seem cool and positive all the time to make people like me, but I realized that was actually toxic and made no sense. Now, I know it’s normal to be negative and hopeless sometimes. It’s okay to be scared or vulnerable.

In fact, being "real" has brought me closer to people than playing the "tough girl" ever did. When I stopped hiding, I finally found my best self. When the songs talk about "purifying the senses," it means seeing the world as it is, not through our old fears or the labels our minds create.

Today, I try to act as my best self. I know not everyone will like me, and that’s okay. My "best" is… good enough. I listen, I care, and most importantly, I am happy and secure in my own skin, that gives a good vibration to people, beyond anything I say.

I’ve finally learned to forgive myself for the little things. If my house isn't always perfect, I don't let it bother me. If I tell a lousy joke at a dinner party, I just think, "Who cares, we all had a good time. I know I made mistakes in the past… but I was learning."

I’m no longer a prisoner of a mind that tells me I’m "like this" or "like that." We are spiritual beings, driven by high emotions that can either trap us or set us free. I chose to free my mind, let go of the need for perfection, and just enjoy the life I’m living.

With that being said I just wish more people could experience that, feel the freedom of escaping the mind that is accumulated through life and fell your real self.

It has been an amazing journey through deep valleys and high mountains. I advice everyone to try and not be discouraged.

Free your mind, the rest will follow!

Hildur